As my finger held the mouse over the box to pay a little more money to have a room all to myself, these things came to my mind:
~ I don't like making new friends.
~ I need down time without having to visit with someone else.
~ I need white noise to sleep.
~ I am afraid my roomie might be one of the mean girls.
~ I am afraid to step out and do something uncomfortable.
So, after minutes of huge inner wrestling, I choose: PICK A ROOM MATE FOR ME.
I quickly hit submit, less I changed my mind. My pulse was racing. My hands were shaking. WHAT HAD I JUST DONE?!?!
I took a leap of faith, that's what. I am trusting God to provide the perfect roomie for this trip He has planned for me!
Reading "If you've ever been wounded by women" I was in tears at how close our fears are/were about women friends. I was struck reading:
Why hadn’t I been patient with friendship?
Why had I let the past rob me of the present’s possibility?
Why hadn’t I seen that the price of being safe — is the cost of being solitary?
Why hadn’t I seen that distrust can destroy a life?I am taking some leaps this year. I am stepping out with Jesus as my Guide. I'm sure it's going to be a wild ride and I'll just learn to lean on Him to protect me from any mean girls.